What if I don’t remember! by Oliver Tusiime

Silence swept my house. All the things I wanted to do seemed far from reach, and my little sister’s birthday was on April 19th. I had remembered her birthday a week before, and I was restless. It was the first time in about 10 years that her birthday was falling on days we were spending time together, thanks to the plans that were uncalled for! I wanted to make her feel loved. I wanted to get her what she needed. And so I posed a question to her. What would you want for your Birthday? With confidence and patience, I waited for her to answer, but my mind was filled with unrest: all roads are closed, shops are likely closed, there are no means of transportation, what on earth am I doing? It was April – 2020!

I had a lot of time on my hands, so it was easy for me to remember many things, to remember the precious moments of my loved ones. Suddenly, my mind was captured. What If I don’t remember? What if I didn’t remember? What if next year my busyness is overwhelming, that I don’t remember?

Do you ever realise the amount of important things that we forget? The friends that helped us cross the road, only for that to be forgotten once new friends come in. Once the clutter increases, and our agenda is full. The less to no attention we give to the kindness that strangers have had for us and when faced with an opportunity to do the same, we go like, “How can I trust a stranger? How will they receive my kindness? Questions and questions, instead of doing what we ought to do.

Sometimes we do that with God. In the busyness of life, we are like, “God, I wish I could have more time with you.” But when the time comes and we are free, we opt for movies 18/7, Oh! And we are sleeping for the other 6 hours. We completely forget.

But His grace is so sufficient and free, that even once the movies (and the other things we opt for) have given us all the headaches – and we are like, “God take this headache away” He still stretches his hand and heals us. He is never far!

When we find ourselves on a hike and breathless, we easily forget that God led us through fire yesterday. Yes, maybe we got out with some burns, but He still healed us, because He never forgets that He is our healer! He wants to hold us and surround us with this remarkable grace. He knows that we can’t manage on our own, and yet he still is so patient with us – until we remember that He has never left.

One of my favorite scriptures is, 2 Corinthians 2:9 (But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”). This verse always reminds me to never forget, to always remember in my weakness, when I have forgotten and I am complaining instead of praising, when I am taken with fear instead of courage. It reminds me of God’s enduring grace for me, and His strength, that He who has no swift feelings, neither shifts of thoughts and emotions, is right there to hold me, and to do what he always does, what he has already done – to embrace me with his Grace. 

It is my loving heavenly Father telling me, “Yes you might not remember what I did and what I am still doing for you, but I am enough, I am sufficient, I am all you need.” It’s Him bandaging me up after a fall on the wrong path and saying, “My way is enough for you, just follow Me, just believe in Me, choose to remember that I am here for you, and all my plans for you are good.”

It’s so important to God that we remember. “He knows how important it is for us to remember so we don’t lose out on where He is taking us. It’s important for us to remember what He truly says about us, to remember His plans for our lives, to remember the gifts and life we find in him. God isn’t forcing us to remember, but it’s important that we remember who He is, what He has done, and what He has given so that we know there is no love like that, there is not trust like His, and nothing compares to all He has given to us!

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